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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:20

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

This is soul school!.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

It was going to be , some day.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

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Put me off passion for life!!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I have no regrets .

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

If there exists a “New York of Australia”, is it Sydney or Melbourne?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

One cannot live in the past .

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Are vampires real?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

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All the time i was locked up.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

(And it was in our own minds.)

So whats the point in blame.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was very sick at this time too.

I said to her

Ive learnt so much.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

My family never makes their pension either.

Comes on , in middle age.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was scared of men, in general

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

She married twice! .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I write beautiful poetry .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Why did i forgive my father ?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

What did i know ?

I never cut or harmed myself..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

And i lived it daily.

I think the readers, may guess!

Im still living with it.

She loved him until the end.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I was 9 years of age.

Who then, do I blame.?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But, we were locked up after school.

I could never make a relationship work though!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But it wasn’t much.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

We all went to grammer schools

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Was to survive, this bastard.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I was seconnd youngest,

I will be 64.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

When she asked me how she looked .

I couldn’t, believe it.

He knew the spot.

She wouldn,t have been !

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I waited trembling.

My life is so biszare .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As i do to all so called friends.?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

She found it foreign!.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I don,t even have a pension.

Would this be the day?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But ive been too sick for many years..

They are buried together, in the same grave..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Especially a lifetime of it.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

We were not on the streets..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

She was in good health!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

So, i spoilt her more .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!